2004-02-19 - 10:52 a.m.

Tuesday night was incredible.Blue October put on the best show.I was moved to tears.It was just indescribable.I felt like I could never feel more,like no other moment could ever match this.It was a night I'll always remember,that I'll always treasure.

After feeling good for a few days I feel myself coming down again.I haven't cut in a week.I feel the urges to do so creeping up on me though.I'll try to resist.I'll try.My right thigh is running out of places to cut.I hate how ugly it is but at the same time I love it.The cuts are fading but not yey healed.I wish they'd bleed forever.

regrets - hopes

the past