2001-12-26 - 10:40 a.m.

I can't sleep. I just lie in bed and think. I am so scared. I know it is irrational and stupid but... My heart is beating so fast. I can't go back to school. I think about doing something to get in trouble so I'll get suspended or something. I don't know. All I know is that this fear is overwhelming me. Maybe I'll drop out. Probably. I don't give a fuck. Ok I do but I just can't do it. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I wish I was dead.

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