2012-05-12 - 2:27 a.m.

The kids are gone for the weekend. The house is empty.It's so quiet. I am lonely.
And restless.
I have been really down lately. Even with my meds. I know I need them or I'd fall apart.I don't know. I kinda hate them.I don't feel like me.Maybe its not the meds, maybe it the circumstances or maybe its me.

I want to lose control.
I want to go a little crazy.

Fuck.

I am just going to get stoned out of my mind all weekend. Maybe tomorrow night I'll get shit faced and cry alone.
Sometimes I really hate myself...

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