2006-12-30 - 9:49 p.m.

I really love him.
I would forgive him anything.
Even this...
But he'll never forgive me.He'll never love me again.
He said it. I said no.I cried. I walked away. He pushed and pushed and then I just gave in.
I am a slut and I want to die.

I really really love him.
I don't want him to go to jail because of me.
God damn it.

I deserved it, right?

I feel so dirty.

I wish he would have beat me until I died.

He was supposed to be the one.

Fuck.

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