2004-03-03 - 1:24 p.m.

I am struggling with this.

It has become such a comfort.

A habit that I don't want to rid myself of.

It is wrong. I know this and I don't care.

I want to cut.

When I awoke this morning that was my first thought. I tried to push it away.It is still there in the back of my mind just waiting to plague me.

I sometimes feel like that is the only way to get relief.The only way to be in control.

I have no one to turn to right now.

I just want to lock myself away.To slowly disappear and be forgotten.

regrets - hopes

the past