2002-01-04 - 2:19 p.m.

I am sitting here feeling lonely, and sad. I feel as though it will never get better. Hopeless. I want to lie in my bed, curled up in a ball and never move. I'm too numb to cry right now. I know I really have no right to be sad. Sometimes the guilt becomes almost unbearable.

My fear is growing worse and worse as each day passes.

I am numb. Soon the blood will flow.

regrets - hopes

the past