2001-04-21 - 11:52 p.m.

i'm sad. i'm crazy. i'm alone. i'm scared.

i feel so lost. so stupid. so dead.

i want to cry. to scream. to die.

i can't. WHY?

The end is not near, not near enough. I am scared. i am still drowning. I can hear my heart beating. that is proof i'm alive, right?

regrets - hopes

the past