2012-05-22 - 6:55 p.m.

I miss him right now.
I hate that I miss him.
Maybe I just miss not being alone.
I don't know.

I'm tired of keeping it together.

People keep telling me things like;

You're so strong.
I'm so proud of you.
It was so brave to leave.
I'm so happy for you.

Ha.

I smile and nod but...
I mean I put myself in a bad situation.
I stayed and I stayed and I stayed.Even when I thought it could mean my death I stayed.
I was weak.

I can't explain my decisions.

No regrets.
Right?

regrets - hopes

the past