2001-07-14 - 7:57 p.m.

sometimes i think i am doing so much better and then i get these intense feelings of sorrow and lonliness. i try to reach out. i try to tell somebody how i feel and end up feeling even worse. right now is one of those moments. i want to go into the bathroom lock the door, pull out a paperclip and dig into my flesh. watch the blood trickle. feel the sharp, beautiful pain.

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