2013-01-08 - 5:09 p.m.
I wish I wasn't so ugly when I cry.
Who am I kidding I wish I weren't so ugly all the time.
I just realized that all guys even the ones you really believe in and trust are still just guys and they suck. Ugh. I hate feelings. I hate myself. Why do I fuck everything up? Why do I blow all my chances and make terrible decisions? Why can't anything good ever happen to me?
I hate how much I hurt. I hate that I let someone in enough to make me feel this way. I'm not letting anyone close again. Fuck.
I feel slutty and gross and like jumping off a bridge.
regrets - hopes