how can i convince you its me i don't like

the weight of words

2012-10-26 - 10:45 p.m.

I'm becoming a little too obsessed with my weight I think. I'm not eating enough to concentrate, in fact I feel like I'm barely functioning. Ha ha I don't care. I ate less than 20 grams of fat this week and under 3000 calories. I know it's fucked up but I feel proud of that. I'm dizzy and depressed but whatever.

Feeling confused... ugh

Reckless
Restless
Lonely
Conflicted
Bored
Unsure
Disgusting

I want to cut.
Fuck it.
I'm going to cut.
No one will ever fucking know anyway.
Ha I feel like I'm going to lose it soon.
I'm due a good breakdowm anyway..

I hate myself

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