2012-06-26 - 3:58 p.m.

I had a decent weekend. My birthday went pretty well. There was some drama but I am actually surprised there wasn't more. I didn't cry or hit anyone so...

My high from the weekend is fading fast.

Sigh.

I don't think fooling around with someone who is just my friend is for me. It makes me feel weird afterward. When it comes to sex I am kind of conservative in some ways. I kind of take it seriously. I don't think I could fuck around with someone I didn't have feelings for. I don't know.

Sigh.

I'll never be girlfriend material.
I'm not good enough for anybody.

I hate when my heart feels heavy...

I'm going to cut it all away.

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