2012-06-01 - 9:01 p.m.

OK.
I've come to the drunken realization that despite all my bravado and talk I don't think I am ready to just jump into casual sex. As much as I like fooling around or whatever I guess I am just a tease.
Ugh.
I hate myself sometimes.

I don't know.

I am tired of not knowing.

I am tired of being a mess.

I hate that...

sigh

Do I even mean that?
I really feel like I don't even know myself anymore.

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