2005-03-30 - 12:38 p.m.
I let myself go.
Falling faster and faster and now I can't stop.
I can't go to work without crying.I am scared to leave the apartmant.I don't like to go shopping,get gas or even drive.I stay in bed all day.I cry constantly.When I am not crying I am in a rage, yelling and hitting and throwing.
I am losing it.
The thought of going to work tomorrow is unbearable.I can't do it.
Next week I start on meds again.I hate that I need this but I can't get through the day anymore.If I don't get help soon I am going to kill myself.I don't want that to be me.
Medicated, zombie heather is better than a dead heather I guess???
regrets - hopes