2004-08-30 - 12:08 p.m.

Yesterday after work I got into bed and felt my world start to crumble.I lay in bed and felt the waves of sorrow wash over me.I stayed in bed until frank came over at like nine.I know I need to take my meds but I hate taking them.At least when I'm sad I know that it is real.I feel real.I'm really scared and confused and I don't know what to do?Should I take them?

Pretending gets easier and easier.

I didn't get the job at lowes.Fuck.I'm stuck at target forever.At least I got a raise...

Frank has been great.I know he is too good for me.Sometimes I look at him and feel my heart breaking.

regrets - hopes

the past