2004-08-19 - 12:00 p.m.

I'm feeling very, very mellow, eerily calm.I'm in control.I'd forgotten how it feels.I hate how much I need these pills to keep it together.I realize that I'd slowly been losing it since I stopped taking them a couple months ago.Everything feels unreal now.

I think I hate a certain "someone".I don't like this feeling.This anger towards them is really not me.I want to fight them.Ha ha.

Things with Frank and I seem to be getting better.I've stayed at his house every day this week.

I just need to keep taking my meds and hopefully I'll be ok?

I was remembering how frank an I broke the closet in my old room.This makes me smile.

regrets - hopes

the past