2004-02-03 - 12:14 p.m.

Tomorrow is my appointment.I hate this nervousness,this worry,this teror.I can't cancel now.It is too late.I was going to cancel yesterday but Frank said he wanted me to go.I am going.If frank didn't want me to go I think I'd blow it off for sure.

FUCK.

I cut at work again.STUPID.I hate myself.I hate how stupid I am.I hate how I have no control.No concentration.

Please let everything go away.

regrets - hopes

the past