2002-01-08 - 6:47 p.m.

Today I went to see Debbie, my psychiatrist. I hate going! Debbie is nice but I never know what to say. So I tried to express how I was feeling and like always she switched my medications. No more effexor,welbutrin or geodon. Now I am starting on paxil and seraquyl. It seems like none of these medications do anything. Maybe these will? Maybe at least I'll get some sleep. She really wants me to go to therapy again. I don't know? I think I've run out of things to say to her.

On another note I am craving pain today. I am going to cut tonight. Fuck it. I just don't care. Why fight it?

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