2001-12-30 - 7:36 p.m.

Well I'll be at my grandma's for the next few days. It gives me a headache just thinking about how fake I have to be while I am here. My relatives here are all so cheerful. I wonder how anyone can be that happy all the time? They are not used to sadness.Ha! My mom told me to try and be happy. Fuck. So while I am here I'll smile and nod and say everthing's fine. I wish I was at home so I could just be myself.

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