really
2001-12-11 - 9:02 p.m.
i don't understand why i am so sad.
to someone else my life probably looks ok.
i think the problem is me. i just can't appreciate what i have.
i should be happy but i'm not.
i should want to live but i don't.
if it wasn't for frank i don't know if i'd still be here. i don't know whether to thank him or not. at night he'll talk to me, sing silly songs to me for hours to cheer me up and help me sleep. i hate the night. i hate being alone. he knows this and tries so hard to help me. i know i don't deserve him.
i'm trying to be happy, really.
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