how can i convince you its me i don't like

one of those days

2001-10-01 - 9:55 p.m.

There are days when I honestly don't think I can take anymore. Today is one of those days. I want to die today. I wanted to reach out and tell somebody but I didn't. I deserve to feel like this. I hate that I can't feel normal.

I was going to take some benadryll tonight to attempt escape but I won't. For Frank and for Amber and Carissa. I need something though. Maybe I'll cut? I've been doing it quite a bit lately. I know I shouldn't. It only helps for a little while and then I just feel worse. Alot worse. Another reason i hate myself.

School is just getting worse. I can't handle the stress! Every second I'm there I just want it all to end.

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