2001-07-07 - 7:48 p.m.

i hurt myself today

to see if i still feel

i focus on the pain

the only thing that�s real

the needle tears a hole

the old familiar sting

try to kill it all away

but i remember everything

what have i become?

my sweetest friend

everyone i know

goes away in the end

you could have it all

my empire of dirt

i will let you down

i will make you hurt

i wear my crown of shit

on my liar�s chair

full of broken thoughts

i cannot repair

beneath the stain of time

the feeling disappears

you are someone else

i am still right here

what have i become?

my sweetest friend

everyone i know

goes away in the end

you could have it all

my empire of dirt

i will let you down

i will make you hurt

if i could start again

a million miles away

i would keep myself

i would find a way

-NIN

I listened to this song over and over for two hours striaght.

Everytime it makes me cry.

Alot has happened.

Maybe later I'll be able to put it into words without crying.

regrets - hopes

the past