2001-04-22 - 9:34 p.m.

I slept. It wasn't good sleep though. It was restless and almost disturbing. I hate that i can't sleep like i used to. I could lie down and sleep and feel at peace while I slept. Clear and empty and free. Now...

I'm always tired though, always. No matter how much sleep I get I always feel drained.

Today I worked. It was sad. All I could think was this is the last time I'll do this and so on. Everything was so sorrowful. Why can't I ever make a decision and be happy w/ it?

Today I came to the realization that I am lonely. I have friends though. But still I feel so alone.

What is fucking wrong with me?

regrets - hopes

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