2001-04-18 - 9:27 p.m.

Today i realized how much i've changed. School used to be my whole life, and i was so fucking good at it. Now however... I am a fuck-up. a loser who can never go back. so sad, lol.

I had a test today in chem. Being in there makes me want to jump out the window. I didn't have a clue about anything on the test. I guessed on the multiple choice questions and then wrote a huge F on my paper.

F for failure.

F for fuck-up.

F for frustration.

The possibilities are endless.

Work was actually tolerable. Surprise, surprise. Jacob and i talked the whole time instead of our usual comfortable silence. It was nice.

regrets - hopes

the past