2001-04-13 - 9:21 a.m.

I need to write. What is wrong w/ me? I don't want to talk to a fucking therapist. Why can't i just feel 'better'? I want to, i really do. Maybe my mom will take me to lunch? It'd be better than being here. Ummm... My mom asked me if i was eating. I have been but i've been losing so much weight. it is probably stress. i think i'm going to throw up. I wonder what would happen if i took all my zoloft? Pain is better than everything sometimes. Shit.

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